Ever since he came into my life, things are never the same. There ain't much interaction till V-day 2012. Don't get me wrong. He didn't declare he likes me hahaa... It's
From that day we talk more. Maybe it's because I got him a Man U jersey from London. He gave me a treat in return. Subsequently, I approached him for free rides back home. From Dec till Jun now, he offered meride home from office less than 5 times and I number of times I approached him is at least twice that number. That is how thick skin I am...
Things did get better at times. We did go out on Sats for dinners and once movie. Sats outing is like fortnightly or 3 weeks apart. Usually I will initiate for Sats outings. He will pick me up from my house and drive me back after our outing. That is very sweet.
In Mar, he even came by my house in the middle of the night to give me a cheesecake and hot chocolate, just because I told him I got craving. This act is out of my imagination, not something that I though will happen to, not to say its something that I didn't expect he will do. I was in cloud nine, hundreds to express my happiness.
He also wanted to give me a rose that is made of chocolate in 1 of our outing in Mar. I didn't take it then because I was shock. But when I go back and give it a thought, I know I missed my chance.
These happy times didn't last long. His acts are not consistent, making me confuse. Many times I wanted to tell him not to be nice to me if he don't like me. I told myself to have an end on my B-day. Just nice, I planned a trip 2 days after my B-day. So I planned to tell him straight. Even if he reject, I have the trip to forget about things.
However, I didn't get to execute it. Before my B-day, I did asked him alot of questions, like how come you give me a chocolate rose, why did you detour to get cheesecake and hot chocolate for me, etc... I never have answers. But he treat me dinner on my B-day, the exact date.
During my trip, we did communicate through WA but only 1 message each (with some days no message from him). On the day before I came back, I asked him if he will come fetch me from airport. My flight will arrive at 7am. Knowing he will say no, I still asked, hoping to get a surprise. Well his answer is: I already told cab uncle to fetch you from the airport. What an answer!!
Had terrible week right after I was back from my trip. Worked over-time 4 day in a row!! I did asked him for a dinner delivery but he say NO!! Because I cursed him that morning. Well okay I accepted it. But what is surprising is the breakfast he bought for me the next morning. I never thought he will do that. To thank him for his breakfast, I offered to give him a treat. And yes we went for dinner on Fri, the first day without working over-time.
We had dinner and that's it. In the journey back home, he keeps teasing me which make me ponder: should I give him the gift I got for him from my trip? Well in the end, I still gave him just before I got off his car. I took a lift and got home. I did peeped out my window and saw him still in the carpark. He text me, asking if I reached home. To my surprise, he offered to give me a ride to airport the next day as I am going off for a short weekend trip.
Got back on Sun. Just when I am about to get off the plane, I text him: I am back!! He replied: So early? He really know when to give me surprises. Since he didn't fetch me for my B-day trip, I didn't think he will come fetch me for this short weekend trip. I felt sorry as I was already in a cab when he told me he reached airport. I knida explain why I took a cab, even though I did mention I will take train back home.
I tried to hint that my friend is introducing a guy friend to me. I thought he will ask me who and how is the meeting. But he didn't. I told him I will go have meal with this new friend and he say no, worrying that I might get stomach upset again, because I had stomach upset 2wks ago. I told him that I can always recover again. He replied okay. So what does this okay means? He didn't reply anymore.
I can't sleep because he didn't reply. He is not, abit, worried that the new guy friend will chase after me. He show no concern about that. Is he that confident that I am wholly attracted to him? I am angry because he is not abit jealous. So I text him at 4am!! Telling him, I am yearning for an answer which I know you would give me.
So over the weekend, I off my mobile phone and had activities myself. To my disappointment, he didn't contact me at all. Is he angry with me? How come he didn't even text me to ask me how come I can't sleep at 4am?
I thought I will feel upset or embarrassed today, 1st day after weekend. But to my surprise, I am calm. I didn't have lunch with my colleagues. I didn't have interaction with him at all today. Although we didn't interact, he is always within my surrounding. I have to put my heart and mind to determine to give it an end. I will NOT initiate to contact him. I believe I can do it this time.
From that day we talk more. Maybe it's because I got him a Man U jersey from London. He gave me a treat in return. Subsequently, I approached him for free rides back home. From Dec till Jun now, he offered meride home from office less than 5 times and I number of times I approached him is at least twice that number. That is how thick skin I am...
Things did get better at times. We did go out on Sats for dinners and once movie. Sats outing is like fortnightly or 3 weeks apart. Usually I will initiate for Sats outings. He will pick me up from my house and drive me back after our outing. That is very sweet.
In Mar, he even came by my house in the middle of the night to give me a cheesecake and hot chocolate, just because I told him I got craving. This act is out of my imagination, not something that I though will happen to, not to say its something that I didn't expect he will do. I was in cloud nine, hundreds to express my happiness.
He also wanted to give me a rose that is made of chocolate in 1 of our outing in Mar. I didn't take it then because I was shock. But when I go back and give it a thought, I know I missed my chance.
These happy times didn't last long. His acts are not consistent, making me confuse. Many times I wanted to tell him not to be nice to me if he don't like me. I told myself to have an end on my B-day. Just nice, I planned a trip 2 days after my B-day. So I planned to tell him straight. Even if he reject, I have the trip to forget about things.
However, I didn't get to execute it. Before my B-day, I did asked him alot of questions, like how come you give me a chocolate rose, why did you detour to get cheesecake and hot chocolate for me, etc... I never have answers. But he treat me dinner on my B-day, the exact date.
During my trip, we did communicate through WA but only 1 message each (with some days no message from him). On the day before I came back, I asked him if he will come fetch me from airport. My flight will arrive at 7am. Knowing he will say no, I still asked, hoping to get a surprise. Well his answer is: I already told cab uncle to fetch you from the airport. What an answer!!
Had terrible week right after I was back from my trip. Worked over-time 4 day in a row!! I did asked him for a dinner delivery but he say NO!! Because I cursed him that morning. Well okay I accepted it. But what is surprising is the breakfast he bought for me the next morning. I never thought he will do that. To thank him for his breakfast, I offered to give him a treat. And yes we went for dinner on Fri, the first day without working over-time.
We had dinner and that's it. In the journey back home, he keeps teasing me which make me ponder: should I give him the gift I got for him from my trip? Well in the end, I still gave him just before I got off his car. I took a lift and got home. I did peeped out my window and saw him still in the carpark. He text me, asking if I reached home. To my surprise, he offered to give me a ride to airport the next day as I am going off for a short weekend trip.
Got back on Sun. Just when I am about to get off the plane, I text him: I am back!! He replied: So early? He really know when to give me surprises. Since he didn't fetch me for my B-day trip, I didn't think he will come fetch me for this short weekend trip. I felt sorry as I was already in a cab when he told me he reached airport. I knida explain why I took a cab, even though I did mention I will take train back home.
I tried to hint that my friend is introducing a guy friend to me. I thought he will ask me who and how is the meeting. But he didn't. I told him I will go have meal with this new friend and he say no, worrying that I might get stomach upset again, because I had stomach upset 2wks ago. I told him that I can always recover again. He replied okay. So what does this okay means? He didn't reply anymore.
I can't sleep because he didn't reply. He is not, abit, worried that the new guy friend will chase after me. He show no concern about that. Is he that confident that I am wholly attracted to him? I am angry because he is not abit jealous. So I text him at 4am!! Telling him, I am yearning for an answer which I know you would give me.
So over the weekend, I off my mobile phone and had activities myself. To my disappointment, he didn't contact me at all. Is he angry with me? How come he didn't even text me to ask me how come I can't sleep at 4am?
I thought I will feel upset or embarrassed today, 1st day after weekend. But to my surprise, I am calm. I didn't have lunch with my colleagues. I didn't have interaction with him at all today. Although we didn't interact, he is always within my surrounding. I have to put my heart and mind to determine to give it an end. I will NOT initiate to contact him. I believe I can do it this time.
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