Noted my last post was in Aug, the same time as he comes into my life. A new team member. Initially he changed my lunch habit. Due to previous bad mouth incidents, my lunch habit is to look for my friend who worked nearby for lunch. After he joined, he will ask me to join in their lunch session. This was the first change.
In almost 90% of the lunch sessions, he would sit infront of me, making my heart beating out of control. He is tall, tan, good looking (at least I think that way) and sociable. But I am introvert, I do not open to others after first few conversations.
The other change that he brought about is making me more proactive to want to know him. As I say I am introvert, this is really the first few time that I want to get to know a guy. I started to SMS him but his response really makes me back off abit. Short and 'sweet' answer which I do not know how to prolong our SMS conversation. Is it because we are still not familiar with each other? Or he sense that I am interested in him, making him not wanting to share things with me? I really want to know!!
2 months after he entered my life, we started to talk more. On the day before his birthday, I sms him, wishing him happy birthday and asked about his plans since he took leave on his birthday. He had no plan so I dated him out for dinner. That is the first time we went out, just the 2 of us. Exciting but not that happening hahaa... We went to a ramen restaurant which he suggested and coffee at TCC. I did get to know him more.
A few days after that, he sms me, offer to give me a ride home after work. I was on cloud nine that day, feel that way even when I go to bed at night. Subsequently, we had longer conversations, through sms or face to face. I would initiate the conversation most of the time. I started to think if he has the slightest feeling for me. Seems like no as I am the one who initiate most of the time. I began to feel tired, after 2 weeks of trying harder to know him. I start to question myself if I should continue to do this.
My friend, SH, told me that I should give us more time to get to know each other. Her case makes me feel sad and disappointed towards BGR. She know AL for 1 year and had crash on him for another year. She then feel that it is time to end this uncertain relationship. She said, wherelse for me, I only get to know him for 4 months only an should give more time. I wonder if I can go on for another year, not knowing of he likes me or not. This is a terrible and horrible feeling. I HATE IT!!
