I thought I might not be able to control myself at work. I guess it's because of the boring course that prevent me from thinking of the unhappy things.
My friend wrote me a super long email. She told me that she think my boss did help me by giving me a chance to go Paris in Feb. However, that is the last happy thing that happen to me this year, at least until now. Had she forgot that people bad mouth and backstabbed me??!! I admitted that I did mistakes at my workplace but to endure backstabbing and outcast by colleagues, is this too much for the small mistakes I made?
Then, I told myself: Never mind. Just look forward to July promotion and more overseas trips to come. But how wrong and stupid I was then. I endured being outcast and let the backstabbing continued. What did I got in return? Nothing??!!
We cannot expect anything in return?! How many people can truly think this way? I m not God. I cannot make myself God, to readily forgive and forget what I had been through for the past 6 months. How many times I cried for being in the battle alone? No one in my team is with me. NONE!! To forgive and forget?! I am sorry but I cannot do it right now. I will try but I need time, lots of time...
That's for now. My train journey is almost ending... I hope the content in my blog gets happier and happier.
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