I did not know how long it took me to fall sleep after my first and unhappy blog. Woke up this morning to found puffy eyes on a disappointed face. Took a shower to cool myself down but I m not sure if it's the water from the shower hose or my tears that clean my face.
Another session of thinking... Why do I pinned so much hope on the promotion? Is this my desire or someone induced me to have that hope? When I told my boss I wanted to join the medical company, he told me I have certain quality to make it big here and he will help me. When I told him how much the medical company offer, he told I can achieve it here in a short time and he will help me too. M I taking what he said too damn serious? Is this why I pinned high hope for this promotion? I have a choice to leave, to believe him. It is me who lead to current disappointment. If I had not believe, if I were firmed to leave. But who will know how I fare in the medical company.
My friends told me not to be discourage and look forward to something good. I asked myself: what should I look forward to? Another chance for promotion next year? A better job somewhere out there? Someone who can comfort me when I am so damn down? I really do noy know what can I look forward to. Felt great depression and want to escape from work... But here I m, taking train to my workplace to attend a course... How I with I can be at beach now to cry myself out and get over this stupid promotion issue NOW!!
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