After receiving my lady boss SMS last evening and one night of thoughts, I think today she is going to talk to me, definitely not in a good tone. How can I prepare myself not to tear in front of her? I am a very emotional person so I believe I will cry when she talked to me regarding last night SMS.
Furthermore, there is a testing today which I could not attend because of another meeting. I have a bad feeling that today testing might not to our advantage which might affect her mood. How how? I feel like I am a scapegoat or venting toy for her to vent her anger =(
I remember boss ever ask me what do I want to do over here. To be a normal person and progress as normal (which might mean slow). Or someone who is highlighted to the management and have more challenging roles and work. At this point of time, my answer is to be a normal person. Some colleagues had reflected to me, through their actions, that I cannot make it. I seriously do not know how come boss say I have the potential to make it big here. Or this is just his management talk to retain people.
The aim of the day is: how to not tear in front of my lady boss... How I wish someone is here to advise and help me... But I am all alone =(
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